Sorry- I'm not available right now...

"Hi. You've reached me. I'm not available right now. I'll get back to you if you leave me a message."

I need some TO (Time Out), some head-clearing space, some breathing room. To find that, I need to fold back on myself and not be available to anyone for a little while. It's just too hard to talk to you. You sound so blissfully happy. Everything seems alined in your life - career-wise and love-wise. It's almost a joke to hear you complain about anything. It's as if you're being polite, acutely aware that not everyone has a blessed life as yours. As your friend, I am truly happy for you. However, it's difficult for me to rejoice with you in your happiness when I have got naught and you know it. I can't be a good friend to you so I need to distance myself from you. You spoke in the past about self-preservation. This is one of those moments. I'm hurting far too much, submerged in recently caused pain and in complete misery. When things get mildly better for me, I'll be back and celebrate with you all of your wonderful events in your life. Right now, I need to heal and recover. I need time and space.
love always,

I try to be a good friend. I try to be the type of friend I'd like to have, with the idea that by being the type of person I want to be surround by, I'll attract such people. So I listen to the woes and the joys of my friends because I'd want my friends to be available to share in my trials and tribulations. Today was just a little harder than other days. Probably because I was in a funk and trying to pull myself out of the mire as well as yourself was just too much effort. I need to recenter and refocus. People like you suck the energy out of me with your negativity and selfishness. My self-preservation requires me to pull back from you.